A Bigger Picture.

Today was a day of self reflection, with distasteful hints of paranoia.

Before you begin thinking that I'm reciting the recipe for mental illness. Which is no joke I should say, I'll explain what's lead me to this rather dark intro. What brings me to this proclamation of my negative connotations surrounding my day, is the arbitrary feelings of existential dread that I had awoken with.

I may sound melodramatic but I assure you, reader, that there are days that all university students face, where they ask themselves one, singular, earth-shaking question; "What am I doing with my life?".

For myself, today was one of those days. These feelings make you question what your own bigger picture may hold for you. Deep, methodical and inquiring, are what these questions can become. I awoke at a ripe 6am to view the sunrise. Thats when the questions began. Details are no necessity when I describe what went through my mind for the better half of the morning; As they were as frequent and heated, as a flash-fire in a dry reed field. But the general consensus was that putting myself through another 4 years of education could be rather fruitless in terms of results. More so because of my Journalist aspirations... Albeit these irrational and one-day-exclusive thoughts, by noon I had woken up to myself once again. These feelings faded, bringing in a quiet panic surrounding my semester workload. Once again I'll admit that every one attending an education, or even holding a job can sympathise with these feelings. With what little mental capacity I had left, after a full day, I attempted to begin one of my rather large assignments. That lasted until my concentration could take no more, closing my mind for today.

But I didn't forget about you, readers. With music powering my soul and my undying enjoyment of writing, I sit here, at my sterile white desk full of clutter, filling another post for you all to indulge in.

A word from the writer.

Josh.