Motivation.

And so another week comes to a close, and here I sit faithfully writing to no one in particular.

Since my last entry into this online record of my life, I've been spending the majority of my time trying to live a healthier life style going to the gym and recording my calorie intake like a madman. I was surprised to see that with recording what I eat, my diet already seemed pretty positive in terms of my daily energy and calorie levels. The aim of obsessing over the specifics of what I put through my body is to help speed up and aid in the process of becoming my best possible self. My motivation through all this has been to aim to look remotely similar to that of the character Kovacs in Netflix newest well-received series, Altered Carbon. Honestly just to define myself to be the best I can be is motivation enough, but when you see men with almost nonexistent body-fat to muscle ratios in popular media one cant help but feel obligated to reach such heights themselves. Well with a year and a half ahead of me and motivation thats through the roof, hopefully I'll be able to achieve some results in the gym, but enough about that.

Really this week I've been left by myself while the new lady in my life has been across the world. Remember months ago now, when I said like all things time can heal a broken heart? Well time did it's job and I'm happier than ever. This amazing addition in my life occurred two months ago, she's been a longtime friend who was there for me in my darkest times, and I for her...leading to my realisation that after four years of an amazing friendship and the occasional crush, she's been an important part of my life that I couldn't even imagine to replace, so with that we are now an item. Whom I'm really quite into.

With life starting anew for me in ways I could never have imagined, and my obsession with bettering myself reaching all new levels, I can full-heartedly say that this year has already gotten off on the right foot. Right now, nothing can stop me.

A word from the writer,

Josh.